My dad in august and was 95 years old & had prostate cancer to, He went to hospitol & more below,?

Then after his Prosate cancer got worse, He had a Bad Ache, %26amp; he thought it was a Bad Back Acting up, %26amp; OK, heres My question, When he went to nusing home, He was Eating/ %26amp; all of a Sudden Refused to eat, He Was alert enough to Sign Papers Not to Put Tubes/ wires/ On him, Ok, heres My real question, My older sister, Told the Nursing Home to increase his Morphine, to take him faster, %26amp; it did, What if They didnt? We kissed him on His cheek, He said Thank you, Very Faint, He Screamed in pain, %26amp; i keep thinking of The gross things i seen, When will it pass? the best advice, support, Story, will be best answer,

My dad in august and was 95 years old %26amp; had prostate cancer to, He went to hospitol %26amp; more below,?
Chicky, I'm so sorry, that must have been horrible for you. Your sister was right in asking them to increase his morphine. I'm confident that it helped to control the pain he had, and from your description it was a great amount. Your thoughts about his last minutes will eventually become less active. I went through something similar with my mom, who passed away from cancer. Try to focus on the happy times you had with your dad. I do that with my mom. Depending on how you handle things, it may take a while, which will be difficult, but again, try to focus on the happy moments you had. It will make it easier.
Reply:I am so sorry about your dad. It is very hard to lose your father. I lost my dad and my father-in-law to prostate cancer. If he was 95 and had cancer he was probably in a lot of pain. The morphine was to help with that. It is not uncommon for people to "give up" with old age, cancer and going in to a nursing home. They have no more quality to their life. That is what happened with my folks. They both died at home but they still gave up at the end and wanted to die. If he didn't want any heroic measures taken then he had accepted what was going to happen. Both my folks had morphine to kill the pain but it didn't kill them. The cancer did. If he had not had the morphine he would have died in agony. It sounds to me like he was given as much care as possible. There comes a time when all you can do is make the person as comfortable as possible. It will take time for things to get better for you. You've been through a lot and you've lost a lot. Give yourself time to grieve and know that you did the very best you could, right up to the end, for you dad. Hugs and prayers for you.
Reply:Respect your fathers final request as you respected him in the past.
Reply:I could not say it any better than the three persons above me. They are right on target. You will get through it. May God bless and keep you.